In Ma Own World...

Friday, July 28, 2006♥

gig... ♥ 8:51 PM

wella.. yesterday's gig was power.. jinx,4thavenue and demilitarise waere darn power sia..!!! i felt as if i got back ma old life back metal rock ma werld sial!!!!
hail de black devil.... kak was terrified cos sum guys were "dancin" u noe like de got trance like dat.... and shawn was askin for panadol.... huda was enjoyin it but she oso got headache....!!
well it was fun .. sha was soo hot he took of his shirt lah eh.. and prim's eyes went wider ha..ha...
great mann.... i love it!!!

nature's calling.

Sunday, July 23, 2006♥

wat a werld wat a guy?!?! ♥ 12:09 AM

well attachment its over but aterrible guilt feelin' is still lingerin' in me. Did ngt insertion for one 84 yr old patient well.. he was actually kinda ill like ani moment gonna passed on but they nurses wanted to ngt cos he go and remove it , soi tried ma luck.It went in smoothly and everythin was alrite later den ma CI was doin auscultation den we realise dat de "whoosh" sound was comin out from his mouth, we tried to open his mouth to see whether de ngt has coiled in his mouth but we were unable to see so ma ci jus removed it. Den i put on his ventri mask as he was in 50% o2 and den i realise dat he didn't breathe.Damn mann, he jus died in ma hands i jus can't believe it. Its damn traumatisin'. All de staffs were like tellin me dat its not ma fault dat he died and am not to be blamed cos he's like almost gonna died and its good for him to died cos he suffered alot. But de guilt is still killin' me cos i handled him last. Hopefully he dun come and haunt me.

oh ya as usual i got pissed off wid karthik. hmmmm went to meet his yesterday and we ended up goin to lavender to collect his boss's son's passport. ok i followed him. den it was like we didn't have time to spend at all. i mean he didn't even tok to me as usual he was like to busy entertainin his boss wife . After dat we went back home and she oso followed us to have lunch wid us in karthik's hse. i realli felt so damn pissed!!!! i mean aft 2 weeks k i meetin him there's no hi no slight hug damn freakin bloody hell. After dat we went to drop her in her hse... Aft dat he jus brought me to seletar resevoir and talked to me askin why am i very quiet dats de boilin point i jus pour out everythin out of ma mind and ended up cryin like a desperate kido. Hmmmm aft so much of cryin and forgivin now evrythin is back to normal. Sometimes i feel life is idiotic but at times i feel its worth.
"The bad things in life open your eyes to the good things you weren't paying attention to before."
dis quote is damn meaningful for ma case...

nature's calling.

Friday, July 14, 2006♥

yr2 attachment ♥ 10:39 PM

ah... damn mann it sucks . de ward is damn freakin' busy. De staffs are cool except for de sista god mann.. she's a hell lot of woman.

FELLO STUDENT

let mi start off wid our fello mate none other den de PRC jin jing, well now onli i got to know her bloody true colour. A bloody agumentive woman and a ignorant gal. bloody idiot wen eva haz goes for break she doesn't bother to take care of haz's cubicle, and wen any of her cubicle patients press de cal bel and esp wen she's free doin nothin she'll jus ignore and expect others to answer it bloody hell!!! well de other day she lost de thermometer and she questioned de HCA on wat to do... come on mann its ur bloody initiative to find for it but she jus stood there by de china staff nurse and was readin case file as if nothin has hapen. An interestin story, jin jing misplaced her log book, and durin our roll call she raised up de question abt her log book, and she ended up arguin wid de sista oh gosh all de staffs were shocked she was so argumentive dat wat eva she said was rite. Till de siater got pissed and f her till jin jing cried. Wat eva mann it sucks to werk wid her, i really pity haz cos she's directly affected by jin jing's attitude prob.

PATIENT

well there's dis god damn hell!!! fello he came in for cellulitis and has a vaccum dressin' so he can't walk but he can do other things by himself. He's simply irritatin' damn damndamn irritatin' sial!!! he jus goes up ma nerves. He orders me and tok cock stories i jus simply type dat out cos i think ma keyboard will break into pieces.

LIFE

life is jus simply suckin' to de max. Jus cos i can't meet karthik often he's pissed of wid me. Wat eva i tok to him he finds it irritatin'. Bloody hell!!! y are guys like dis, y can't he understand me.... If i tell him am busy , he says i forget him and am self centered. huh!! wat sial!! am really depressed to de max. Even yesterday all de way he was sayin dat am irritatin him fuck rite. Its damn freakin' hell sial.Am so pissed dat i cancelled ma outin' wid him dis sunday, let him suffer and let him think wat eva he wans to think i cannot entertain ppl who are like dis. I think like how haz said wen de gal gets menses de guy will get PMS , i think dats wat goin on rite now.

HEALTH
shit mann... i got ma tonsils infection again now, wen to consult de doc he gave me sum idiotic medicines and said if its worse den we hav to remove it. Shit sial!!!

nature's calling.

Monday, July 03, 2006♥

ward 5b ♥ 8:12 PM

ooohhh attachment sucks ...... dias ward kills me mann.... de staffs look okay but de way they potrait them self is like a fierce woman. i myself dun noe how am i goin to survive there fro 3 weeks. Wella mine is male cubicle less work (i guess). Wat eva is it i have to go thru the tuff times.
Ya ppl ma blog skin looks so kinda sadist rite... dats how am feelin now.... jus feelin so dumb and angry wid ma self ( dun noe why). Is it due to hormonal changes or is it cos of de ward dat i feel so damn lousy.
Life is changing drastically, i rarely have time to spend wid ma family and ma guy . jus spendin' almost everyday in ma room widma mp3 player and infront of de comp, i jus feel so dumb mannn!!! I jus feel dat everyone is driftin away from me......!! ARRGG!!! i really got to do sumthin abt dis !!

Huda sorry gal, i noe we can't bring ur dad back but being by ur side thru ur hard times is de best thing a fren can ever do!. I know how u feel, i've eva heard u talkin abt ur dad to me and i realised how close u are wid him, its really pain ful to lose sum one like him.

nature's calling.