well attachment its over but aterrible guilt feelin' is still lingerin' in me. Did ngt insertion for one 84 yr old patient well.. he was actually kinda ill like ani moment gonna passed on but they nurses wanted to ngt cos he go and remove it , soi tried ma luck.It went in smoothly and everythin was alrite later den ma CI was doin auscultation den we realise dat de "whoosh" sound was comin out from his mouth, we tried to open his mouth to see whether de ngt has coiled in his mouth but we were unable to see so ma ci jus removed it. Den i put on his ventri mask as he was in 50% o2 and den i realise dat he didn't breathe.Damn mann, he jus died in ma hands i jus can't believe it. Its damn traumatisin'. All de staffs were like tellin me dat its not ma fault dat he died and am not to be blamed cos he's like almost gonna died and its good for him to died cos he suffered alot. But de guilt is still killin' me cos i handled him last. Hopefully he dun come and haunt me.
oh ya as usual i got pissed off wid karthik. hmmmm went to meet his yesterday and we ended up goin to lavender to collect his boss's son's passport. ok i followed him. den it was like we didn't have time to spend at all. i mean he didn't even tok to me as usual he was like to busy entertainin his boss wife . After dat we went back home and she oso followed us to have lunch wid us in karthik's hse. i realli felt so damn pissed!!!! i mean aft 2 weeks k i meetin him there's no hi no slight hug damn freakin bloody hell. After dat we went to drop her in her hse... Aft dat he jus brought me to seletar resevoir and talked to me askin why am i very quiet dats de boilin point i jus pour out everythin out of ma mind and ended up cryin like a desperate kido. Hmmmm aft so much of cryin and forgivin now evrythin is back to normal. Sometimes i feel life is idiotic but at times i feel its worth. "The bad things in life open your eyes to the good things you weren't paying attention to before." dis quote is damn meaningful for ma case...
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